So there’s these 2 dance shows on Youtube, REMIXED and LXD, that I’ve totally been obsessing over. REMIXED is basically one Youtube singer and one Youtube dancer collaborate together and they perform it, LXD on the other hand is basically a Youtube dance adventure. They’re both really good.
Then I went to the mall with Phyllis, she had to quickly return something before going to work. When I got home, I decided to clean up a bit. And that’s when I found the Valentine’s Day card that I got from Jamy when we were still dating. I dunno, I read it and it actually made me really sad. I started looking at photos of us together, the one’s from Quebec. And for some strange reason, I had the urge to just change the background on my phone. Then I went training, and it was okay. It got my mind off of things…but when I saw my phone background, well I just got kinda sad again.
I honestly don’t know why, but I definitely still have feelings for him. No matter how hard I try to push them away. I miss the times we spent together, when we were dating and when we were best friends. I guess now that he has a new girlfriend, we’re not really friends anymore. Every time I wanna hang out, we can’t cause he feels like we’ll bump into someone, and his girlfriend will just end up being mad at him. I can’t even talk to him on the phone anymore, cause last time we talked on the phone, everyone saw it and started getting mad at me. They kept saying how she was gonna get mad, how she didn’t like that I was “homewrecking” them, and shit like that. It really sucks, cause not only did I lose the one guy I ever really liked, I’ve also lost my best friend; the one person I could always count on.
I’m really loving this new Youtube dance adventure. I think it’s so amazing, and you guys should check it out! ♥